Broken Hearted Father

So I am writing this one cus I am upset. I find out by my middle child that I am having a little girl from my ex.I know that I have not been the best person in the world but I love my kids and and would never stop them from seeing there mother or father if the role was reversed.I feel like crying and yelling and blaming myself for this stupidity that I have put this child in. I know that I am on the right track and I am doing what God wants me to do. It just hurts that this could have been so different.I am not interested in this women anymore just want to be in this little girl's life. I know change must stay here for me. She will never know the old me only by stories. She will see a father who will love her and be in her life know matter what I have to do. There is no price on my daughters life. Lord I call upon you tonight to protect this baby little girl and to ease her fathers thoughts and to keep the mother safe and for you to hardened the heart. Draw her close to yo father and show her the love you have showed me. Amen